This question comes up often in conversation with my friends and clients. I have used substance that have helped me escape throughout my life. Cannabis has been the long lasting one that has stuck with me throughout my life. Alcohol was easy to cut out, and foods easy to control but cannabis my truest and closest friend has been difficult to over come. To those on the outside there is no problem. As a user of once per week for most of my life and at the worse of times a daily user, I have had my own struggles with this. I have gone months without even thinking about it at all. Then a time of weakness or uncontrolled emotional response I find myself back at it to escape from the torment my emotions can bring. Many are not aware of the depth these emotions are capable of within me. The extremes that they can take over my mind and body. I have seen that my own emotions are hard to deal with especially the silent triggers. Taking a moment to change the state to one that is able to see and feel the light again if only for a moment. Isn’t that what we are all chasing by engaging in our addictions, a moments reprieve from the torment of our current bodily experience.
Let’s talk about the the silent emotions, the ones operating in the depths of the soul. The ones that we find the hardest to understand. These are the ones that create the most havoc don’t they?
So what is a silent emotion? They are emotions that get triggered from the moments but are not screaming at us, only silently driving our actions. They are times when we are thrown into anxieties that cannot be explained. We do not recognize when they are triggered only the layers of events that compound into an uncontrolled emotion that we try to escape. We will then project or blame the outside world for our suffering instead of seeing that in these moments we are having a set of chemicals that are firing in the mind that are based from a past experience. These ‘past experiences’ are hard to explain. Hard to remember the story because the stories we have attached to these unexplained emotions do not always stem from experiences from this life.
According to Dolores Cannon and her work with hypnotherapy, she discovered that the spirit will insert experiences that do not even belong to you into your subconscious mind. These experiences are emotionally charged and can create impulses and triggers that are not even connected to our own life but are needed for our spiritual learning.
This creates what I have come to know as the silent triggers. What does this have to do with addictions you ask? Well when we do not know the source of our suffering how can we begin to heal it? Maybe this would be easily understood if we could comprehend that we are multi dimensional beings but we have lost that knowledge. To look at the human according the limited experiences we have in this life now we can easily miss place our healing. Maybe if we began to look at it like we are working to heal together and that all experiences have a truth to share may be a more accurate truth.
If this is the case, then wouldn’t it suggest that addiction is an escape from the mission we are actually here to accomplish? As soon as we use a substance to escape from our current emotional state instead of facing, understanding and choosing to hand it over to the light we instead are turning the mind away from the collective healing we are here to accomplish. The deeper fears and sadnesses of the collective consciousness is just waiting patiently for us to get on board and process the pain. When we process a pain we are helping the collective at the same time. Its likened to the awareness that came with the chimpanzee experiment. When one chimpanzee became aware of a habit it benefited other chimpanzees from another clan and instantly that awareness was carried over to unconnected chimpanzees. Those habits were then incorporated without the same type of teaching the first one underwent. This takes communal learning to a whole new level doesn’t it? This awareness resides in the subconscious sharing between minds. awareness carries further than we can ever know. So then when we experience addictions we are not only avoiding our own emotions but depriving the process of those who lack the ability to process on their own.
Our lack of knowing how to process emotions have left so many of us in the dark. Left us in the abyss of not knowing how to swim in an ocean that is meant to drown the weak of heart and there are so many of us drowning in it. So many that have lost their way with it. Look to those living on the streets, are they thriving? Do they know their potential, maybe deep inside they are spirits with a deeper purpose than we could ever imagine.
